Those little moments

As I think back to everything that happened from June 26th to August 9th, I begin to remember little moments which took place that I will be forever grateful. Each day that passes always seem to bring new moments that we had with Hayes which brings joy to my heart. Each night, I thank Jesus for the moments he allowed us to have.

I am thankful that I was able to hear my son's heartbeat on monitors whenever I wanted. The sound of his heart made my soul smile. I am thankful for the evening that I was hooked up to a monitor the entire night to keep an eye on my vitals. My nurse left the sound up just loud enough so I could hear, and I was able to fall asleep to the sound of Hayes' heart beating. I am thankful that I was able to hear his hiccups while feeling them at the same time.  I am thankful that the first time Cody was able to feel Hayes kick and move was when he was talking about bunt defense for baseball. I am thankful for the moments each day when Hayes was able to make me laugh because he hated when the monitors were put on me. He would always kick and punch when they were put around my belly for thirty minutes to an hour. When they were taken off, he would settle down. I am thankful for the split second that I was able to hear Hayes whimper.  I am thankful for the hours that we were able to hold and kiss Hayes while telling him that he was going to be okay because Jesus was going to take care of him for us. I am thankful for the brief moment that a smile came across Hayes' face. I tell myself that he was smiling because angels were whispering in his ear.

These are moments that not every mom will be able to experience. Cody and I are so blessed to have had these moments with our sweet baby Hayes.

Your Promise is Heaven to Me

I felt like yesterday's church service was directed right to our hearts. Everything our preacher said rung true and it made me wonder, "Is he saying this for me?" Have you ever had a moment like that? I know for a fact that God laid it on his heart to have such a sermon. We learned all about God's promise. God has a promise for each and every one of us, and He will deliver peace with each promise. We can't let doubt creep into our minds and paralyze us because this will lead us to a position of unbelief. God's promise to me is that I will one day meet my beautiful baby boy again. All my days on this Earth, I will wait for the moment I get to see Hayes face to face. My promise might encourage the promises for others. I can go through each day and question God why he needed my baby in Heaven, but where will that get me? Nowhere. I am grateful that I know where my baby boy is and who is holding him tight at this very moment. Jesus is telling Hayes all about his Mommy and Daddy and I want there to be a smile on his face because he is proud of us. Hayes picked us to be his parents. What an honor!

 

God may have more than one promise for each person. We just have to be still and listen. The closest we'll ever be with God is in the wait. He may speak things over our life through other people and this may be the answer to our prayers. My daily desire is to be close to God because I know that's where Hayes will be.